BITTER SWEET

I'm in the east and your in the west 

you're nothing more and nothing less 

They always have you at your best 

But here i am, having you at your worst 

I saw you cry and then i feel so sad 

I can't do anything, because your not mine 

I accept the fact that there is no YOU and I

But still I always be there for you 

A shaking from the pain that's in my head 

I just want to crawl into my bed 

And throw away the life i led 

But every thing is still the same, so i won't let it die 

I don't want to spend my life on waiting 

for someone who didn't ask to be wait

For I have fall and yet I stood 

And I'll forget you because I am not a fool

MY FIRST SEMESTER

                                Education won't wait, teacher's will hate you but don't give up because it's never to late. My first was the same just like me other days. I am late, I am late and I am late and I can't say anything because I am really late. When i got up, I suit myself, Grab my breakfast and rode the motorcycle. Woe to me, when i reached the school it's still close. What the hell happened in here it's already 8 o'clock yet they're close. I got angry but acting violently on the first day of your 1st semester was a bad omen so i drag myself to a church near by. When i return it's open and because i'm confused i don't know which room should i go. I sat on the last chair in room C and I thought I should be there in that time. For the second subject I got the right room but by the time I open the door all of them was staring at me. Well it's not the problem, the real problem was the thing or i forgot to bring my registration form and I told Mr. Reyes that the color of my registration form was white but it is  actually pink. I got inspired because Mr. Reyes told me that sacrifice 4 hours for study and it's sure that I'll pass my 1st semester. Those inspiring words got old so fast and i don't know why but i was sure that there was a reason. They were to close to each other on the first day of our class that's why i get to my senses that maybe they were old acquaintance. The first person i talk to in that classroom was Allbeen at first sight he was a nice person but it was really deceiving. They feel so comfortable to each other and i don't know what i miss that makes them so close to each other. Later on i get used to them, maybe it all started when i admire one of our classmate. Admiring her brought me to the edge of my silence and go have a conversation with others. One of my classmate Rajesh Lois Vallejo decided to build a band and join the Informatics Music and Arts Club ( IMAC ). I accept his proposal just to know how good they were and to play another position in a band. That's my reason why i want in and other agenda was to get closer to her. I also know that she's going to join the band because of her appearance. Well i kinda feel dizzy when i study a few songs because it's my first time to play lead guitar and i really don't know how to read those tabs. Our first rehearsal, i thought we're going to be complete but i never expect it, most of them leave the school so early. The immediate solution we came up is to drag some of our classmate and taught them what to do while we practice. It goes as it was, we tend to boast about the rehearsal but i know we'll be the center of laughs when we do that. After that day they decide to have a rehearsal having the whole crew and there as we go. We go to harmonix, just a few walk from elliz's house after the rehearsal we stay at his house. We rehearse everyday with out worrying the weather and the situation. Well they say that i m the luckiest among them because there was this time when we have a rehearse and i go home, then i go to the meeting place but before i get there i saw them walking. I don't know where were they going so i follow them. They saw me following them so they told me that it was so hot because there was no electricity in the vicinity so they decide to have lunch outside. Well i told them that it's my instinct and it's just a beginners luck.

                                           I thought those days will never fade, those laughs we share, the things we say and the band we made. I know nothing last forever and i can't accept the truth that someday we take big steps together or alone. It all started when things get confusing when everyone has there own agenda. The first problem we solve is about the rehearsal and the band's line up. One of us decide to change our drummer because she's a beginner but all of us decline. Then after that, issues gone mad and someone told her something that offend her and she thought that we said it. We settle those things with the other members of our club and it goes smoothly. After that problem another one came the acquaintance party. The acquaintance party became the biggest problem for us because we don't know where can we find a drum set but the organizer decided that were not using drums for the acquaintance. Well we manage to get the acquaintance much better than we do in our rehearse. then another one came i thought the next problem will tear us apart but maybe we nearly fall  in that one. I admit that it was because of me i fall to her and i always interfere maybe i care to much. The active members of the band has been separated because of our fights and i really regret that because we nearly fall apart. After that i apologize to her because i don't want to have fun while our band is in the edge. After that problem another one came and i we're tired, sick of being angry and tired of being bitter. While i m eating my dinner and have a conversation with my classmate someone hit me and i thought that those problems start when we acquire friends so i jump into the conclusion that we gain and we will loss others. That's why i told Rajesh that i wish we could take back the past and make it better than but i guess we can't bring the past back.

DAYS FROM MY PAST

                       Things really change from time to time so am i. I thought that everyday is always the same and nothing change but if you stop and stare at your surroundings, everything change and you didn't even notice it. I always wake up so early and i really like the morning breeze yet i got up in different time sometimes 3 o'clock , 4 o'clock or even 5 o'clock in the morning. It is still dark, creepy and the worst thing, i don't know how to cook that's why i open my computer and then surf the internet. When it's still dark i usually go down and look if there is anything that i can eat inside the refrigirator because i don't know how to cook. Maybe dawn is the darkest moment in my life because all i do was to sit in the front of my computer and surf in the internet. Sometimes my mother cook some food for me and it was delicious.The dawn wouldn't end like that because after i surf in the internet i ll go upstairs and sleep again. I had this routine that every morning i eat my breakfast and take a bath then suit myself and go to school. when i was in high school i usually rode a motorcycle but now a days i walk when i go to school but sometimes i am late and i need to ride the motorcycle. i usually drink coffee when i go to school , coffee is not that delicious but it makes me feel super, super, super smart.Some days later when i was walking along the 10th avenue i felt so disorient i don't know why but as i reached the door in the computer lab i remember that i forgot to bring my flash drive so i go home. Then after i fetch my flash drive i come across a beautiful girl, i don't know why but somehow i m stunned and i really don't know what to do and after that i nearly died because a cab nearly hit me lucky me because the cab driver was alert and he misses me. somehow i manage to be on school on time and without hesitation i sat on my chair and open the computer.

                              If you don't know how it feels to be a student without burden i will tell you how it feels. when i was in high school i go to school so early just to sleep because i felt so uncomfortable in my house. School was very cool when it comes to stuff like hanging around and having fun with others. Some say that school was the worst place they will ever be " NAH ", i don't care about their opinion because hanging around outside the school was not that entertaining, teachers are really entertaining, the guards, the cafeteria crew, the disciplinary personnel and the parents who acts as a big time and tell us what should we do, i hate what they were promoting but still i love them because without them my day will never be complete because i find hilarity out of them. My classmates were really cool even though they're not, i can say that they are pretty cool. Maybe a bunch of none thinking teenagers but still they understand you and the can still differentiate what us wrong and what is right. There was a time that they forgot what is the difference of my attitude and they disturb me in the middle of my sleep. When they woke me up because of their deliquent doings i go outside and find some place to sleep and to have my peace and zen. The sleeping spot i've got for more than a year us the waiting shed there i feel like i'm in a quiet and peaceful surroundings because all i heard was the birds chirping and i feel the cold breeze although i really expect that i won't have peace in school because it is like an evacuation center and i'm not the only one who go outside of the room. other student go outside just to make fun of the guards because they know that the guards will chase them, in that case i have to hide from the guards whenever they come across my sleeping spot but there was a time when i got caught and i told them that i feel so unwell that's why they take me to the clinic. The clinic is my new sleeping spot and i am so delighted because the personnel inside the clinic doesn't care even if your sick or not in that case i can sleep in there as long as i want to sleep. I can say that im the smartest person inside the classroom because the only subject i attend was math. Sometimes i attend the other subject and sometimes they see me sitting in the corner and then a few minutes later i was asleep and they can't do anything about it because i am always like that from the start. our classroom was the typical classroom, some students had power over our classmate but you will expect that they don't have brains and the use violence to dominate the whole classroom. Some are the students that are normal or simple, they know how cope in and they know how to laugh even though it does not worth laughing at all. There was something in a classroom and that something is a student or should i say a group of student. In our class i can say that i am one of the most cunning person inside the classroom i don't know how i adopt these talents. all in all we are three in the class and i still can't if i m the best among the three of us because i don't know what things they can do while i m asleep yet we are buddies even though we know that we had a competition over the thrown of being clever inside the class. There was a time when we were about to get a detention because of our iniquity and hilarity. We answer the ore test with might in our hands and blood in our nose and still we manage to make them laugh and escape the detention, after that we go inside the room with smile in out faces and asking them how awesome are we ? but not a single one shout or scream for our awesomeness they just ignore us it's sad but it really makes us happy because another points for the troublemaker. If i only have a chance to get it back i can do much better than i have ever done in t hat day. Another act i had done or should i say i am being framed for the heroic or idiotic things i've done, because i am always asleep i rarely know what's going on, my classmate ask me to get her notebook at the teachers table, as for me i didn't obey such orders unless your so pretty or i m not in the right mood to decline, well hell yeah  im not in the right mood to decline so i get her notebook but by the time i lay my hand in that bastard notebook i was caught by my teacher left handed and then he punish me with 1 week detention unless i point out who told me to get the notebook, that time i cursed one of my classmates because he mocks me for having 5 uncorrect answer in our test in math and mocking me in my favorite subject was the thing i hate most than hating my horrible and hideous person in the entire universe, because of that i point him as the master mind of mu idiotic act and we get detention to the max and i also did community service but still i admire the waiting shed because whenever i get sleepy i can sleep in there. well besides from that i really admire the canteen even though the surroundings was unpleasant to have your breakfast to have your breakfast but there food was really good that was one of the reason why i get fat. These food was really good that was one of the reason why i get fat. There food was good but the atmosphere was really horrible i rather eat under the tree than to eat at the cafeteria. The schedule was only 30 minutes recess but i can't complete your what you call happy meal in 30 minutes. I can do it but i don't want to eat in a wrong manner hurrying your self just to meet the 30 minutes recess what a horrible philosophy. maybe there was a ethical issue but i can't call it anymore a happy meal if i m not happy eating my food. Sometimes i get to my senses what ingridients they put to their chickens because it taste like potatoes, i don't know why that kind of question comes to my mind but it really taste like potatoes and i love potatoes that is why i love there chickens. After the school hours i go home, im tired of having fun with them and im tired of their sick jokes. i go home in different ways and in different days, Monday i go to  the L.R.T. and stay for a while i'll just sit on the bench observing the people who come and go. Watching others was entertaining and L.R.T. was entertaining too, if you spend your time watching people in the L.R.T. it's funny that they try to get in even though is no enough space for them. sometimes watching them makes me feel uncapable doing something, i have the time to change things but i guess im another casualty of society. i became somthing i don't want to be, sometimes i feel that i took away from them the freedom to know the things i know related to them. having all those burden, those secrets, those enmity and agony i wish i had the chance to let it out in just one person so only one person will feel the agony of knowing all those things that makes me want to say " i want to end this miserable life i had  " but no matter how painful it is i lived to the philosophy of patrick.     

In the end everything will be okay , if it;s not then it's not yet the end.

National Hero

                This argument or debate has occur long time ago. Before your parents or aunt & uncle was born their is a two great man who lived in the Philippines trying to attain or to have freedom from alien invaders. the first great that happen to be our national hero. he is Dr. Jose P. Rizal born from a wealthy family , well educated and study in a European country. Dr. Jose P. Rizal wrote books like Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo. Well i don't know what does the story means but in my own understanding it shows how priest and officials act in that time. They abuse their power to the max and treat them like pigs. After our national hero another great man fought for freedom. Andres Bonifacio is a patriot , brave warrior and a good countrymen. He has a great contribution in the Philippine history. Andres Bonifacio fought a bloody war and in every corner he didn't know what might happened to him when the enemy attack them.

Dr. Jose P. Rizal ( Left) and Andres Bonifacio (Right)

                      In the early history of the Philippines these two heroes fought the same war but not in the same way. Dr. Jose P. Rizal wrote books and articles to wake the hell out of his own countrymen, they let the invaders treat them as a bunch of idiots. he fought the war with less violent , without using sword and without shedding blood. later on he was arrested charging him treason for betraying the Spaniards. He was locked down there in Fort Santiago where he wrote Me Ultimo Adios and he hid it in his lamp. Dr. Jose P. Rizal was killed by means of gun he was shot at the Bagong Bayan.

Books Dr. Jose Rizal wrote about the Spaniards Noli Me Tangere (Left) and El Filibusterismo (Right) 

People who fought the cruelty of the invaders

                During those times , Andres Bonifacio also led militia and ask for freedom well the Spaniards didn't gave them what they ask because it means letting them go under slavery and they really enjoy the power over us. Andres Boniofacio knew that they will never give what they wanted that's why he want revolution. He also fought countless battles for his beloved country. He was also part of KKK a group of people who want freedom from the Spaniards. These heroes fought the same war , they fight for a country that's worth dying for and they make their own way to have this freedom , a freedom that never exist .

GLOBAL WARMING

                                 It all started on humans , long ago human used to grow the fields and eat what food may it bear but as time pass humans are getting lazy and they use technologies to ease all the works without knowing that those technologies slowly desolate the world. If you are aware , most of us has the nature of being irresponsible , arrogant , selfish , boastful , and most of all lazy that is why things are getting out of shaped. Do you know that the ozone layer is being destroyed because of the trash the human have caused and if the ozone layer is totally out the ultraviolet ray will hit the earth surface and we'll get toast. For example the north pole , humor spread that their is a hole in the north pole where ultraviolet ray hit the ice directly and their is a possibility that the ice may melt and it may flood the whole world and may cause an ice age. If those happens everything will going to extinct and all the trees will be withered and die. Humans can no longer trust the fields because it won't bear anything because of the climate change. In short no one will survive they may last a decade but not long enough to see their grandchild or even to see their children having a family of their own.
                     

The Arctic Ice Cap keeps melting under the effect of Global Warming

                                As i mentioned people are really irresponsible but not all of us some of us are trying to help the earth survive for the future generation. If you could only hear or watch the music video of linkin park his WHAT I'VE DONE you'll get to your senses that what have you really done , does you help save the world or you help to destroy it. I'm not promoting some music video but it really got me that all those years I've spent , did i really help or did i really deserve to have a better world and leave it to the future generation broken and desolate.
                     
                            If we don't take actions what tomorrow we will face a deserted cities , devastated roads and a pointless future for the next generation. i visualize the things that might happen if we do nothing 

Earth will burn but not exactly like this 

to help save the earth, if the trees has been withered and the animals die a few remaining survivors would fend themselves and the worst is they might eat each other just to survive from hunger. If you won't take actions who will ? one man can't change anything if others are not willing to change.